“Now I´m Where I want to be
And who I want to be 
And doing what I
Always said I would
And yet I feel
I haven’t won at all”

Anatoly Sergievsky, Chess – The Musical

My dear readers – so you are still with me? Thank you for that!

And welcome back to a new chapter in my adventure. 

Today i´d like to take you with me on my own path again. The one I recently decided to walk upon. I think I already established that each and every one needs to follow their own path. What I maybe did tell you yet – and I am just fining out myself – is that is indeed not so easy to follow your OWN path. Especially if it is a new path, one you haven’t taken before. 

But I guess with this metaphorical path it’s just like with a real path. There are those that have got a really good pavement and are broad and well lit. These are the ones you’ll meet the most people as it is easy to walk upon. Then there are those that are a bit more difficult as they are more narrow but still it is a proper path that people have already walked upon and you can at least see where it will take you for some few meters. 

And then there is that moment where you just get stuck and you can’t move on that easily as there is like loads of scrubs and brushwood ahead of you blocking the way. Or the path will become very steep and stoney. 

I have just arrived on one of those places an I indeed intend to take out like a machete and strike my way through the primeval forrest to find out what’s behind. Which is more easy said than done. Especially as this comes with two additional big obstacles that I have to face. In my case these obstacles even have names – so say hello to the feeling of guilt and the fear of being egoistic.

When you embark upon your own journey you will have to make decisions that not everyone around you will understand. Which is just normal and there might be different reasons for those around you seeing you on a different part of the way. But they do not want to come with you. So now it is upon you to decide: will you carry on what is your journey no matter what? Will you take a detour to carry along the road the others have mapped out for you? I know what I will try to do but I feel very guilty and selfish towards the people not understanding why I wanna walk down my path now. But I am a bit tired of walking their way. For all i know they are still invited to come along with me. So is it indeed egoistic to walk on? I guess it is not, as you are not walking down your own path to hurt anyone else, it is just that at one time in your life you have to chose where you wanna go now. 

And yes it is not easy, not easy at all! But hey, no one ever said life is easy.. can be loads of fun nonetheless!

And as I am actually not a big fan of the phrase „no one ever got to the top of the mountain in one giant jump“ (I do find it a bit patronizing) I have to agree that this is (unfortunately) very true.

So i thank you for walking with me for a short while and reading my beautifully messed up thoughts. I will now put on some gloves, get out my pruning shears (cannot find a machete) and cut away some branches and shrubs that are ahead.

Have fun on your own path and let’s meet again soon.

A.